It's been a while. ____-

Hey, it's been a while since i last updated my blog. Well i guess you can say i actually dont have good enough materials that can be written in this blog. Loads to share but with so little effort to express. Lately I have been having mood swings. I dont actually know what I want in life right now. Everything seems so blurry to me & I have been having vivid memory about the past. This is one of the important reason that is contributing to my mood swings right now. Not knowing for sure what you want to do with your life at the moment can take a huge toll in a man's life. Longing for continuous companionship, living in a huge closet mostly because of man's number one fear which is the fear of knowing the truth. About yourself, about others & most importantly about the world. Haihhh, I am 100% sure you will not be able to figure out what Im blabbing about here in this blog. I cant seem to figure it out myself. Hmmmmmp. Im so confused. Sometimes what you did before in your past sometimes just come back to haunt you. One at a time. Each becoming a ghost in your life. A spirit in your body. An influence to whom you are becoming.People always say we cannot correct the wrong doings of our past, all we can do is just to look forward,move on & change for the better.But what if the past will not allow you to do all those things. The sense of regret just keep on consuming you each day. And all you can think of is how stupid you were back then.All those foolish actions influenced by none other than the devil himself. Hmmmp. I wish I can turn back the time and do it all over again, the right way of course.