It's a new year

So it's january again people, what an exciting month it is for us all. As many wish this new year will better then the previous one. Oh well, goodbye 2009 & welcome 2010. Hooray. I'll be taking SPM this year which means this is my senior year at high school. Oh well so far nothing much happening at school besides me trying my level best to double my effort in my studies these days. No pain no game right? However a huge part of me still havent left 2009 yet,a part of me is still living there and what's more terrible then to be stuck in the past right? Hmmmmmmp, a lot of bitter & sweet memories that I've made during the one year period. Many which has created the person I am today. Hope this year will be better. Wish me luck guys as I will do the same.

Hello 2010.

Hello, nothing much to write about actually, hehe. Im just making the most out of my current free time. As a matter of fact, I have a very huge amount of free time on my hands these days, since the school holidays started of course.Hmmmp oh well, what more to do right for us school kids in these one and a half month school holiday other than staying in at home or just go out regularly with family & friends. However for the fortunate ones, their parents will be taking em' for vacation and that leaves the rest of us here staying at home bored of our little mind. Hmmmp, oh yeah Im quite excited and yet a bit scared actually about next year. Oh what a big year it is for those born in 1993. It's our final year in school & yes SPM cannot be avoided anymore. Like it or not, we fellow malaysians have to take it to ensure our near future. Well I might say that Im a bit driven next year, haha I hope so. Im determine to get better grades than before, achieve things I havent before and the most important part is, just have fun while Im at it. : )

Hello 2010.

Conclusion.

Maybe going both ways is not such a bad idea after all? I think. Oh yeah and i think it's over between us.

Anxious.

Hey, I have been accidently infected with an eye infection from whom I do not know. Hmmmp, well all I can say about it is it hurts like hell in the early stages. I couldnt open both my eyes the first and the second day. Which was on last monday & tuesday. Pfffff, what a great way for me to start of my first week of school holidays right? Hmmp. Well the bad news doesnt stop there, my brother Iqmal who is currently taking his SPM was also infected. It was a severe plague that landed on my family & it came out of nowhere. Well I guess this is what people call, the unfortunate times in life. He, my brother of course has no other choice but to wear sunglasses and was forced to take his SPM paper in a seperate room from all the other SPM candidates. What a sad way to start SPM right? Well hopefully he'll recover soon. Well as for me the bad news stops there, I think. After approximately 6 days of being quarantined in my house, my eye is finally getting better. Hopefully it will come around in these few couple days. As I am superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr frustrated of not being able to go out & have fun with my friends due to this very dangerous illness. Hmmp, I guess I kinda missed out on practicly all of the fun activities stored for me by my friends. Oh well what to do right? We cant fight fate, we can only go along with it. Im wishing for my future days in this holiday season to be better than what I've experienced so far. :) That is a wish Im dying for it to come true & I'll try my level best in making em' come true. **Sigh

It's been a while. ____-

Hey, it's been a while since i last updated my blog. Well i guess you can say i actually dont have good enough materials that can be written in this blog. Loads to share but with so little effort to express. Lately I have been having mood swings. I dont actually know what I want in life right now. Everything seems so blurry to me & I have been having vivid memory about the past. This is one of the important reason that is contributing to my mood swings right now. Not knowing for sure what you want to do with your life at the moment can take a huge toll in a man's life. Longing for continuous companionship, living in a huge closet mostly because of man's number one fear which is the fear of knowing the truth. About yourself, about others & most importantly about the world. Haihhh, I am 100% sure you will not be able to figure out what Im blabbing about here in this blog. I cant seem to figure it out myself. Hmmmmmp. Im so confused. Sometimes what you did before in your past sometimes just come back to haunt you. One at a time. Each becoming a ghost in your life. A spirit in your body. An influence to whom you are becoming.People always say we cannot correct the wrong doings of our past, all we can do is just to look forward,move on & change for the better.But what if the past will not allow you to do all those things. The sense of regret just keep on consuming you each day. And all you can think of is how stupid you were back then.All those foolish actions influenced by none other than the devil himself. Hmmmp. I wish I can turn back the time and do it all over again, the right way of course.

Woo.

I think i might like you dear. Im just currently waiting for the right time. :) I am not a man who rushes into things, hee. Btw everything I thought of you before is clearly making sense each day.

You're just not worth it

Finally, I've realised that you are not the person whom I thought you to be lah jaz. It was just a mirror or a wall that you created that led me into falling for you but not anymore honey. haha. Now, especially after that night you have let loose your true-self & now I have learned who you really are. Thanks & sorry for everything. I have now completely let loose of all my emotions from you. You are just not worth it. Hope you will find your mr right soon. :) I pray all the best for you.